Date :: 28 March 2009
Time :: 2:40AM

i cant sleep and i dunno what to do.... yesterday is a bad day for me... i screw up everything... even to my parents.. i really dun wanna make this happen but it just happen so suddenly. i feel bad about myself for what im doing just now. but now its already the past. After consult from my brother, i feel very useless, very shame and wasting my whole fucking 3yrs after NS doing nothing for future... what i really want... what i really wanna be... what can i be? i really dunno...... all i know its feel the environment of the job 1st than know what im going for... but this way takes alot of year to experience it. its hard to find the right patch that you're going. life is not easy.... all must facing many experience to earn your GOAL. but who knows? maybe what im doing now its my future job or it just an interest? i know i'm wasting alot of time, never save and keep spending for those that i can afford. but there's no saving for my future.... im already no young anymore... im not a kids... but im still acting like a kids... :(

ThankQ brother for supporting me. i know that you're helping me, but in my mind, i really feel like dun need anybody help. i just wanna use my both hands to earn for it. i know its a waste of time. but this is who i am.... really appreciated that.

To Darling, sorry about yesterday....

To Dad & Mum, sometimes i really trying to help/do something up.... but end up quarrel and im become the bad guy... or can say bad son of the family... i admin, im a bad son...

well i stop here, cos there's some words deep inside me which i dun feel to explain out...
Sorry to everyone about yesterday.....

by right, after my birthday i already wish that i could be a better person(guy) or better MAN. guess now im fail.... and i still trying... its not easy... haiz......lucky now i still able to finish this post... my hand was injure. i broke my hand and now is bandage like a punching glove... hehehe still can type le... but spend alot of time to finish lor.... hehehee so late liao still cant sleep... well Good Nite....





Will its already 2:45 in the morning, Doing nothing, listen nothing & searching nothing. Just facing the Desktop screen.



Bad day of the week,

Lost my company Thumbdrive ( Have to buy a new one to cover )
Delete my old harddisk after i brought my external one. now have to waste time do recovery
My mp3 player spoil ( think waiting for Iphone for Gphone )
My Laptop recovery data corrupted ( have to wait for Vanda to get a copy for me )




Time past so fast, Yet things go so slow.
Life wasn't easy than before. there alot of things that adult have to do and think for the future.


P/S

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.


i hate the way when Dad and i talking, Always talk abit will quarrel or he keep nagging non-stop.